Another day of the interviews over. Ewan. Bothered na naman ako. 2 more applicants gone. One wasn't really because of the interview. She just suddenly blurted out that she doesn't really believe in having orgs and said that she'd try again if she changes her mind in the future. The other one, well-- kinareer namin. So I'm kind of feeling guilty. Di ko ma-explain pero parang ganito, I agree with Sir Alex and Sir Nick kasi na sometimes, we go overboard. Although hindi sya applicable sa nangyari today, napaisip pa rin ako. Agree ako na siguro, it should be a little bit more formal. Or at least wag na lang sabihin na "this is a formal interview blah-bah" 'cause we all know that it isn't. Pero hindi naman ako ang magdedecide nun. It's not up to me. And I can't blame the members if they don't want, or don't feel that we should change the interview process. Yun yung alam namin dahil yun yung ginawa samin. Not saying that as an excuse, pero hindi ganun kabilis yun. It's an AF tradition and somehow, I feel na hindi kami nasa position to change how [some] things are. Pero yun nga, bothered ako kasi I want to change it but at the same time, kasali ako sa mga... let's just say, 'talented' sa current na mode ng interview na to, and I don't hesitate to 'use my abilities' when I feel that it is needed... SO medyo malabo...
I'd like to say that I don't care what other people think of my org, afterall, they don't get to judge, they don't know anything. I don't care if the happy and *gay* people of arki think we don't know anything except basketball, I don't care whether they see us as academic or whatever it is they're projecting this days. But still, ayoko naman na sobrang panget na image. Ah ewan. Bahala na.
So yun nga, out of the three applicants sheduled today, isa lang yung natapos. At can I just say [well, of course I can], sobrang disappointing pa yun. I don't think we would have cared much kung di na rin nya tinapos. Seryoso, nairita lang ako sa kanya. Which is bad kasi I liked her before the interview... she should have just kept her mouth shut. Pero dahil nga ako ay conflicted na tao, I realized na 5 applicants na ang nag-quit sa interview this year, at sa tagal ko sa AF, career-high na yun!! Usually, 1 app/year lang ang napapag-quit sa interview, tapos ngayon, 5 na! And we're not even done with interviews yet! What's wrong with us? Did we really get sucked in that 'vicious cycle of power-tripping"? Mean at harsh ba ang mga tao sa Forum? So I asked Kim for his opinion on the matter. I wanted an app's viewpoint kasi. What he said made me feel a bit better, eto yun, some parts edited:
"Para sakin, tama lang ... ... ... ... ... Pero if we want quality members, tama lang yun! Kasi nate-test kung gaano kagusto maging AF."
"... ... di naman ibig sabihin harsh ang AF kung madami nag-quit, fault na ng app yun..."
And I thought, if Kim, who have just recently undergone that thing we call the interview at kaya nyang sabihin yun ^^, then siguro, tama nga lang. Maybe we should just find more applicants like him, someone who can comprehend what we want to convey through that process that Sir Alex calls 'psychological hazing'. Pero more than that, natawa lang ako dun sa WE na part. 'We' na talaga eh noh! Feel na feel na na AF sya. Haha :p GO Level Nine!!! Best app!! hehe :p
Oh yeah, just so it's recorded, Drea said she's willing to head a committe next year kahit sabay ng thesis. Talaga lang ha! At pagna-nominate sya, hindi sya magdedecline. Pangatawanan mo ang sinabi mo. :p
Aw, the UP Pep won 2nd place lang ulit sa Cheerdance Competition. Sayang. SDT won 1st place again pero sobrang sayang 'cause less than 0.5 points lang yung lamang nila. May medyo nahulog kasi dun sa pyramid ng UP, siguro kung wala yun, we weould have won na this year. Sayang. But nonetheless, [sabi ng ni Gretchen sa kanyang maliit na boses] I love you, UP!!! hekhek :p
Arr!! Bukas, *sya* ay andito na. I don't know for how long. Oo na, masama akong anak, pero hindi ako natutuwa. :p
"Leni, I'm scared of you. Scary shit." --Maebs
